#480

apa juga keputusan yang aku buat dari aku pandai beza mana baik dan buruk,
 adalah datang dari keputusan aku sendiri. 
tak pernah ada satu pun keputusan yg aku buat hasil pengaruh orang lain. 

#479

kalau orang dah ignore, sila jauh2.jangan cuba apa jua cara keji sekalipun.
macam dalam business, boleh pilih mana company yg kita nak deal with. 
sama konsep dalam life. bukan maksud boleh buang orang sesuka hati.
tapi, HAK KITA UNTUK KAWAN DENGAN SESIAPA PUN.
bukan hak orang lain untuk tentu duduk kita dalam hidup.
yes, it is my life. so, i have the say in it. not you.
fikir untuk hidup sendiri. bukan hidup orang lain.


this is the full stop. 

#478

yeah, right.

#477

#476

pedih? go against family wishes? mati?


think again.


ada apa2 yg boleh aku tolong?

#475

still long way to go.


fight for yourself aisyah!


yeah, go!


everyone else pun sila fight for your right. tak rugi jadi degil kalau itu yang kita mahu. hidup kita sendiri bukan?

#474

it takes no longer than a split second to have your heart broken.
yeah.


choose wisely.
to break or to be the broken one?


it never crossed my mind. to. choose. i. don't. have. to.
coz. i know what i really want.
not to be.........

#473

dah patut stress ke?


entah. hmmmm.
xde rasa. orang lain dah tolong rasakan.


ok lah.


agh. stress!

#472

OK.


tak mampu nak hadap emo sorang2. tak larat. 
dah cakap dengan dinding. tapi, xde reply. 
hmmmm.


n hari ni sangat bersyukur tak kerja di KL. ya. KUALA LUMPUR.
sesak. serabut kepala otak. tak tahu minda positif mana org KL pakai supaya boleh tahan hadap benda sama hari2. balik kerja mesti pening. haih.


#penatsangat


sebab duit, semua benda boleh berubah kan? ya. aku tak terkecuali.

#471

i used to live in my very own world. everyone did. sampai bila?
don't know. once in a while we need it.
but, now we need to move on.
let's go! to a happy happy land...  ;)

#470

cry baby cry.  T_T
hahaha. evil laugh.


on another note. grow up man. u creep me out!

#469

"The missing piece always trying to fit inthe shattered heart hungry for a home"

#468

how do we ask for something which is our hak?
but, we don't know how much is it?
and, we don't want to have anything berkait dengan that someone, kalau boleh.
how?

#467

bagus betul la dapat partner yang murah hati. 2 hari lunch free. 
semalam nasi kerabu n hari ni laksa + cendol. 
haih. bilanya nak kurus ni.

#466

i'm a serious doubter. and i do what my heart tells. dari dulu aku trust my 1st instinct. coz, itu selalunya yg terbaik. benda yg aku terlalu banyak fikir ikut rasional akan end up sakit bagi aku. gamble in making decision. bukan maksud bodoh2 ikut arah yg ada depan aku. instinct + step back a little dan view dr semua arah. but, never ditch your first instinct. padah kalau degil, sendiri terima la babe.  

#465

walking through the jungle.

fun!

#464

dah start pening. dan harus fikir dari sekarang.
no more "nantilah. nantilah"
xde sape nak tolong nanti.
ok.

#463

agh! external xle detect kat lappy. 
i need the data inside. dem yuh trascend!

#462

a child dream. imaginative. 
yet, to come true.
you don't show a grow up expression. 
more like I'm listening to a 8-year old boy.



dreams. 
adult or children.
we do have dreams.
big or small. 
we can try together, right?

#461

waking up with positive vibes. happy!
having toast and now ready to work!

#460

talking about almost anything over BTS Fullamak meehoon soup. sugar cane juice. rains.


just bliss.


;)

#459

paman, i love you.

#458

jealousy, please go. i don't need you anymore.

please stay.

#457

sleep a bit early. wake up early. on fon. delete sent archive. all.


;)

#456

langit pagi ni cantik. the colour blends nicely. 
a bit orangey kat bawah and blueish upwards. 

lebih kurang macam ni tapi matahari tu xde la.

loves!

#455

Deforestation and Climate Change : Reducing Carbon Emissions from Deforestation and Forest Degradation (The Fondazione Eni Enrico Mattei (Feem) Series
By Bosetti, Valentina (EDT) / Lubowski, Ruben (EDT)

Publisher : Edward Elgar Pub
Published Date : 2010/08
ISBN : 9781848448247
BookWeb Price : MYR 623.74

Availability Status : Available for order from suppliers.
Usually dispatches within 3 weeks.
Language : English

freaking 600? dem. baru plan nak guna voucher 1malaysia tu. haih. sapa ada extra monehh? kind of needing this book. T_T

so paman, u need any books? i got the 200 voucher. hehe.

#454

hints given. can't u just wait?

#453

nasi lemak. ok. full.
ready to mengantuk..............

#452

i love my present. less to hate. more reason to love. eh, no reason to love.

just love.  ;)

#451

rindu sabah. rindu sebelum tido, plan esok nak masak apa. rindu bangun pagi2. rindu pergi pasar. rindu pilih ikan(walaupun xkenal semua jenis ikan. end up beli udang besar sekilo.) rindu beli ikan bilis dengan aci depan kedai jual kelapa parut. beli lemon buat teh lemon atau air lemon. beli sayur. selalu terung n tomato. balik pasar pergi sarapan dekat restoran lengkuas kat sembulan. makan nasi dagang or roti canai. lepas tu kenyang. haha. balik tak masak pun. tido. petang2 sikit baru berkobar2 nak masak. 
then, pagi2 bawak bekal popia or apa2 lah yg rajin dimasak pagi2. rindu hari2 balik keje pikir nak makan apa. selalunya makan luar or kak ida goreng ikan + sambal tomato. ada la sekali dua paman hantar lauk. grill fish, kari hijau, tomyam dalam kelapa. yums. lapar la pulak. ok. bai.

#450

“There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.”

—	Lucas Scott

apa kes quote dialog cite drama ni? whatever. our life. we choose. 

#449

#448

rindu zaman belajar. jeans, tshirt, selipar jepun, tudung selekeh pun xde sape kesah. kalau xde kelas boleh bangun lambat, x payah bangun pun xpe. sekarang belajar juga. tapi, totally different. bukan kerja sambil belajar. ini belajar sambil kerja. haih. susah nak digest.


chaiyok! FOCUS!
max is 4-5 years. u gotta ace it!

#447

those times can never be enough. 

and done removing. i'm sorry.

#446

waking up feeling lovely and all. siap2. enter the car. turn on the radio and the DJ goes like "a relationship ends when...?" hmmm. xde topic lain? tekan tukar frequency. DJ said "the signs of a cheating husband" Ya Allah. tolonglah. spoilled my mood je by hearing the topic. come on. cite la pasal food n travel ke. semalam hari breakup sedunia ke?
but, ada 1 ayat tu xle tahan. a relationship ends when the girl ask the guy to hold her handbag. hahaha. insanely hillarious. if u know what i mean. x salah. tapi, xnak elaborate further. jz funny.
ok. put aside. mari habiskan spot classification for today! 

#445

so nice having a chat with u boneka. kau pun macam ise. a nice guy.
x payah la pusing jauh2. sesat nanti.
:p

#444

sekarang kurang emo. jadi desa puteh sunyi sepi. cuma ada gambar saja.

desa tu ada sebab lonely+hatred+rimas+mahu escapism. ya. itu dulu.

now? harapnya xde dah. 

sekarang happylah. petang2 boleh pusing pasar malam. 

tengok food, orang ramai. fun. xde stress2.

kan paman?

#443

pedassss! 
lunch=laksa.
yeah!

#442

#441

dem yuh selsema. go away!


#thatawkwardmoment when someone dah tahu cerita dari sumber2 yg boleh dipercayai, how to mengelak? nak cerita, panjang sangat. nak mengaku, segan.
so, senyum je la. ;)

#440

#439

still down with flu. ;(
why lah sekarang ni antibodi x kuat langsung. dulu demam sehari dah kebah. esok nak makan bubur. tekak sakit tak baik2. 2hari lunch buffet hotel. tak sedap n tak sihat. huh.

#438

sabtu. waking up late. laundry. masak macaroni soup n telur bungkus. sesi lipating baju. movie spiderman. surfing. tido.
ahad. waking up a bit early. laundry. ironing bajus'. movie-the net, made of honor (i can never get married to a friend). nasi goreng campur(ayam+daging+udang). pi selayang pandang cari gaduh. eh, kereta. masuk FRIM. trekking sampai pancit(turun 3 kg paman?) piccies. viddies(later upload). apple juice. "our home". balik. tido. 
mana paman hari sabtu? bakar tulang kambing? tasty? tasty for plant. haha. fertilizer ghupenya.


penyewa triton masih tidak dapat dikesan. tolonglah jangan aniaya orang. harap2 accident la pakcik ye? kete selamat. awak je x selamat. aniaya lagi bisnes org lain. tak baik tau.


ok la nak tido. jauh jalan tadi. pening+flu=demam. tolonglah esok dah ok. tak sanggup dah.

#437

I bruised my heart. with a heart-shaped one. i tried stitching it. but, it's still wide open. bleeding some more.


I hate it. really.


someone. take me away. far away.
make me forget this. all of this.

#436

ayat dibawah bukan utk u paman. reminder to myself.

#435

"sorry. salah tempat untuk manja2. please come again. for other stuff. really."


get real.

#434

.........






nak cerita something. but, totally forgot what it is. nvm.
tomorrow is weekend yaw. supposed to attend something but kena cancel due to kambing. 
what? kambing? yes it is.  -___-
haha. super lame excuse. but hey, it's money. and that reason is pretty solid.
so, esok gonna be chores and cooking day. why did I wrote all this?

so, thank you.

#433

dia cantik. rugi kamu milik dia sebab revenge. kalau tak dah settle benda paling kamu risau.

oh, yang sibuk2 hal orang lain tu kenapa?
list kredit kau lagi banyak dari debit. itu yang penting untuk kau fikir, kan?
yuran, servis kereta, tayar dah takde rambut, kursus lagi.
agh!

#432

hey you!

YES, YOU!

#431

Everytime I saw someone boobs, I wonder if what they have are real or not?
haha. not being lucahs or perv, but hey, it's reality huh?
still amused by what my boss have. ;p


excuse me. i'm a flatty. haha! n i dont even care.

#430

owh. baru tau yang dulu kau tak pandang dia sebab......dia tak cukup cantik?


ok. sentap x?


ah, who cares, right?

#429

It's been 8 month since I left Sabah for good. How time flies.  
Too many things happen. Good, bad, great, sad. Semua ada.
Ajar aku untuk hidup. dan survive.


;)

#428

make your dreams come true!

Everytime I felt restless, he reminds me why I fell in love with him at the first place. craziness!

#427

lalu tempat jatuh dulu dengan orang sayang sekarang.
macam error "Overwrite memory?"


the answer is, "Definitely YES!"

#426

RESPONSIBILITY.


family. spouse. children. 


SANGAT PENTING!
ingat wahai aisyah!

#425

i am normal. shifted from norm dan saya akan terkesan.
tak minta lebih. tak jua saya merungut.


tapi, saya harap saya faham. cuma, ada sedikit rasa sedih. pedih.

#424

dear moon, 
will u listen to me?
coz, no one will....

#423

senang hati kalau orang dah terima. learn to accept.
dah kurang sikit la segan.


thank you future!  ;)


awwww, rindu paman. esok balik kampung. harini tak dapat jumpa.
sedih oooo.  ;(

#422

sesak la. serabut.

#421

i need a break. penang perhaps?


please.

#420

headache. belakang kepala. somewhat dizzy. 
and hurts when turn around or head moves.
agh.

#419

Love possesses not, nor will it be possessed,             for love is sufficient unto love.

  - Khalil Gibran

 a quote from Baci chocolate wrapper. fave. suka sebab wrapper dia ada quotes. and the choc itself is delish!

lunch for today:
1 Daim, 1 Ferrero, 1 Hershey's nugget, and 1 Baci.


sorry paman. got nothing to eat. oat bars doesn't sound yummy. hehe.


n now i am hungry. T_T

#418

lost wallet. found in washing machine.


lost me? God knows where.


i hope you won't. coz, i barely remember my own name.

#417

breath in. breath out.


and all i want is u.


funny. used to be blink once. blink twice.
haha.

#416

Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open.

- John Barrymore

Not a door you purposely open for others to come in. 

- aisyah abdullah

#415

don't have heart at all.


dah hilang kot?

#414

wahai si hati rebel,
don't you have anything to say?


does it even matter? nobody going to listen anyway.
i have much better way to deal with it.
hati bukan takat rebel. kebal sudah.


batu.

#413

#412

;)

#411

belakang kepala sakit. berdenyut2. agh!

#410

"kenapa tak bawak tunang jugak?"


hmmmmmm

#409

jadi selfish boleh?


penat.
hati sendiri tak terjaga.


put others before yourself.
what? apa tu?


kalau semua fikir macam tu xpe jgk.
damn.

#408

can i just leave everything here? 
pack my bag, some money and just disappear?


ugh!

#407

paman. take me away.


trying not to be selfish. 
how?
i can't do this.


T_T

#406

STRESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


dah kitorang cakap taknak, taknak lah!
kenapa susah nak faham?
loan. need to pay back. 
have better things to do than to satisfy all of u.
please....................


I is sad.
;(

#405

raksaksa hati. hati burst. 
2 hours, mana cukup.


sabar ok?

#404

yes. error 404. page not found.


serabut. celaru. confused. sakit. pedih. bimbang. paranoid. suka fikir bukan2 yang buruk2. yeah. saat ini. detik ini. itu yang aku rasa. macam duduk hadap tembok besar. kiri kanan depan belakang. tak ada satu ruang pun yang beri aku lalu.


salah aku. slap yourself, dear self. oh, and hold your tears. nobody want to see that, si lembik. you make who you are for people to see. apa yang aku ada? nada. zero. itu words from a loser. no. don't be one. everyone else wanna see the winner you. be strong. fight for you. yourself. no one else will.


one moment you feel like everything is trapping you. when the other time you can see your future as clear as the sky. you know where you goes even in 5 years time from now. dari awal cerita yang aku mahu hingga akhir cerita, juga seperti aku mahu. cerita aku bukan? cerita si degil.


on another story. few days ago, ada kawan gila2, bunga2 mahu ajak aku kahwin. gila kau? yes. his dad just passed away. that question was so random. entah aku org yg keberapa dalam friend list dia yang dia dah bunga2. funny but at the same time, it's sympathy. how depression can make you do silly things. chill bro. the more you look for it, the farther it go away. kan paman?


cemburu. lihat momen2 happy kamu dulu. yes. momen2 happy kamu dalam lappy. 
bukan kamu yang past. kamu yang present. kamu yang present dengan momen2 yang past. aku mahu lihat senyum kamu yang dulu bila sama aku. untuk masa ini, future dan selamanya. 


yes. i am that selfish. si degil yang tamak.


*serius rasa mahu nangis.


ok. move on. past is past. senyum, hidup yang masa ini ada aku, kamu. itu cukup bukan? 
kita sama usaha jadi yang lebih baik dari past. untuk kita juga.


craps. merepek due to tidur yang diganggu. agh!

#403

I’m selfish.

I’d only want those who want me more

&

Better the devil you know than the angel you don’t.

-bilabintangbicara

#402

a very precious sleep just been kacau-ed.


thanx akak domestic helper.

#401

today is 27. so, i'm a month older. old? i guess.


heh. tahun ni ramai member yang akan kawen. ape tu?
kita start dgn fatma, ain, luqman, fani, pokpa, abe long muhaimin, puloh, n the list never stop.
asmah, mai, n a few more dah tunang. 
i saw monehh flying. hahaha.


so, paman. when is our turn ah? 


mengada. padahal....

#400

yes. i envy you. 
coz, i don't have stories to tell. i cant be your storyteller. 


so, will you let me be your listener?
i'll be a good one.
i promise...  ;)

#399

gimme back my coolness!!!


why is it disappear? where did it go?

#398

i just can't wait!


;)

#397

i felt so mellow right now. can't smile. remembering things i shouldn't remember. looking at things i shouldn't peek. imagining things that could never be happen. wondering how if that and that didn't occurred. agh! i shouldn't right?
so.
paman, i miss you. a lot. although we met almost everyday. still, i freaking miss you. this is new. the feeling i had for you is unexplained (it crossed my mind, u ada guna2. but, neah. u didn't right?). i played hard to get when the fact is i am really simple n easy (with a lil cover up here n there. not to worry though). 


looking straight up ahead. and without glancing back at past.
yeah.

#396

apa agaknya perasaan bila pergi wedding ex?
hmmmm..


wondering. 

#395

i want to be the only passenger on your boat, paman.

#394

i am stubborn.
tapi, kalau tak degil, takdelah sy dapat study remote sensing, jejak sabah, lepas tu dapat masalah negara. 
but, it's fun. learning process to be a human. a better human. 


and now,
we both are stubborn. 
tapi, kalau tak degil, tak dapat la backpacking to europe kan paman?

#393

kadang kita rasa everyone around us are supporting us. 
the fact is they only hold you with the topeng. 

#392

hey, isn't that girl u used to hang out with? 
wow, she's a model now. 
don't u wanna be one?


i'm still the kampung girl. no regret, huh?

#391

lawak pagi hari. macam tau2 je aku suka X6. hahaha.

#390

one glance and you know the rest.


look at it and don't turn away.

#389

deeper than that.

#388

eh? tengok lagi? sudah lah. takde apa yang fun kat sini.
penuh sarcasm saje. 
tapi, kalau mahu lihat future yang indah2, silakan...


;)

#387

tensi! susahnya nak buat color balance image.
'orang' yang pernah ajar dulu adalah 'orang' yang sangat tidak ingin jumpa lagi.


agh! 

#386

2 days left.  T_T

#385

loves!  

#384

we have a secret.
(err, maybe more than one?)


neah. whatever.
friday the thirteenth. 
yes.


;)

#383

i want this.. but, no monehh for shopping. 

T_T

#382

kalau nak sihat, mesti makan makanan yang sihat. no junk food, no fats, no too much caffeine.
breakfast roti. lunch salad. snack makan fruits. dinner tak perlu amik. kan paman? ;)
makan untuk sihat. bukan untuk kurus.


konon la. breakfast tadi makan granola bar quaker oat. 1 jam lepas tu perut dah bunyi2. hahaha.

#381

first time makan sate minang. quite good.

n paman, y u give me fats?

T_T

oh, gambar ihsan gugle

#381

dah 3 hari. isk2.

#380

i would like to have spend an evening here..one day..

#379

she's a beauty.

#378

feels like jumping higher than i thought i can. 

can't wait. 

;)

#377

stresssss!!!


tipikal mind x habis2. have to convince every other people why i should do that. payah!


n need to get new spec this very evening. buat kerja macam blur2. i need monehh! 
sape2 yg ada hutang dgn saya sila jelaskan sebelum counter tutup. sorang tu dah janji nak bayar lepas bonus bulan3. hopefully betul la kan.

#376

you know that you sayangg someone if you cried becoz of him. 
and you cried becoz you no longer can hold getting mad at him. it's the least or worst you can do.


and yes, your middle name is emo.

#375

tensi. piktur2 byk x jadi. n boleh tak dia salah bg scanned film? 
entah gambar sape2 dia bagi. dah lah kedai jauh. agh!

#374

tak susah bukan?


ok. now we have our own way to success.
wish us luck!


trust. n don't wander2. xde sebab n pekdah pun der..

#373

super duper serabut! 
tipikal vs. don't mind.
memang payah nak decide la. 


please la faham.....

#372

passed a minor stage. haha. gila awkward. 
nasib baik still ada issue nak borak.hehe.


p/s: i do want white actually.

#371

had a weird time last night. spec went down straight into the toilet while wudhu'. hahaha.
now pakai mata silicone ni sangat tidak selesa.  ;(


and a very weird dream last night. tak boleh digest kenapa mereka perlu ada dalam mimpi. aku siap bagi warning "don't touch what's mine!"  hahahaha


n now sangat nervous atas sebab2 tertentu. help!

#370

i'm freaking out......................


ok. serius seram. takut. risau. segan.
semua ada kot.
agh!

#369

hoping all goes well.  ;)


looking back at things.. err, I shouldn't right?
Ok. move on. go go go!

#368

penat rupanya jadi domestic engineer. fuhh.
can you manage it dear aisyah?


still long way to go......

#367

tak susah bukan? keep going.


you can do it! 


love,
moi.


baru tahu moi tu maksudnya bubur. haha

#366

i'm trying hard to be cool.


but most of the time, either i don't mind or i don't care.


;)

#365

is it? but, i'm not an imsomniac....

#364

in fact, i feel it dah.  ;)

#363

a short talk. growing ups. 


up up and away.




p/s: iknowyoumissme! haha

#362

7th! a happy day!
a great weekend! a new routine (hopefully).


looking forward. please be good.

#361

woohooo!

had fun. but wish paman was here.
 ;(

saturday pls come faster so i can see paman!
mish mish u!

#360

mulut dah ringan. banyak la tanya. jangan malu. nanti sesat sorang2. 
siapa yang rugi? sendiri jugak..


n dah rindu tahap dewa dewi.
cepatlah ahad.
paman!

#359

sinar2 mentari dah cerah. awan hitam berlalu jauh.


ceh, apa merepek. proposal dah siap. hoyeah!
tomolo is holiday!

#358

baru dapat news yang break my heart into pieces.


why now?

#357

lapis langit pagi tadi sangat cantik. tak sempat snap sebab kejar masa. 
eh, bukan deadline hari ni? yang pergi main sini kenapa?
dah2. shooh. buat kerja sana.


ok.  T_T

#356

2 hari ++ di johor. bliss.
pusing2 dalam kipmart masai sambil bawa balloon angry bird. semua orang pandang especially kids.
 T_T


takpe. bukan selalu.

#355

satu tahun babe.
satu tahun.


kau mampu?