heartlove: August 2011

#88

*geli

terlalu PDA ok? simpan2 lah sikit. nanti orang meluat, menyampah.
cakaplah tak peduli sekalipun. hakikat beb.
nak manja2, sendiri rasa lah. tak perlu kot bgtau semua orang.

baby baby baby ohhhh..... (justin bieber background song)
sekian, terima kasih.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!

#87

sup kambing, kambing golek.
*muntah

tak suka daging. liat. tak sedap.

bai. nak balik kampung. cuti raya.

#86

*still dancing

dapat cuti awal sehari. yeah!
(untung la) ada delivery ke JB.

tapi, drive sorang. partner busy.

;(

#85

sakit sikit.
tahunya lari.
pedih sikit.
tahunya hilang.

come on.
sampai bila?

#84

my hands are full of bruises. senang scratch.
hanger, besi tingkap, laci plastik semua ada. tak tahu bila kena, tiba2 rasa pedih.

hati pun sama. takda angin takda ribut, tiba2 pedih. sakit.

i hate the stares i got when i came home late. tapi, nak buat macam mana kan. haih.

#83

*dancing in the air

3 days more.

;) or ;(

kau nak rasa yang mana satu?
mana2 pun seronok. bukan? ;)

#82

Segan, ragu2 akhirnya jauh. Mungkin yg sekali itu adalah paling bermakna atau ada yg lainnya aku tidak punya pengetahuan dalam mengintip masa depan. Cuma berharap yg sekali itu mampu mewarnai ingatan masa mudanya. Meskipun kelabu pucat aku gembira. Ingatan ku slalu jelas ttg yg satu ini "You like a star and i'm just a starlight stalker" sambil pandangan ku tembus keluar lalu jendela kamar.

status seorang sahabat. read: sahabat = friend. dia maksudkan aku. metafora dia lagi tinggi. dulu pernah balas pandang 3 tahun tanpa berani tegur. muka aku garang ujarnya. last2 kami kawan. aku lupa siapa mula dulu. mungkin aku. final year muka memang tak malu sikit. aku suka metafora dia. aku boleh faham apa dia rasa. kata2 macam tu mesti ada pahit yang dia rasa. benar. problem family. jejak bundle, dia yang ajar. bila balas kata, tiba2 aku rasa jadi pandai. dia bunga2, aku layan saja lurus. bukan aku sombong. sebab loyal. ya, itu situasi dulu. aku tahu apa aku siapa punya. lepas convo memang takde jumpa. aku kerja jauh, dia lagi jauh. ada buat janji, cuma takde masa. now, dia kerja dengan petronas if i'm not mistaken. our friendship was good and still is. status atas dia post after kitorang contact balik. i can sensed it back then, tapi aku buat tak tahu. fake hopes are just hurtful. sakit nanti aku tak mahu disalahkan. yeah. play safe. kalau dia masih contact meaning it's worth to have this friendship. kalau dia belah, memang nampak tak ikhlas la kan. and to dear friend, aku takkan lupa kau la..

it's not that i don't have any guy friends. becoz giving fake hopes is pedih. tak tahu bila orang lain akan balas balik pada kita. i can sense mana betul nak kawan mana yang bukan. mens are so obvious.

#81

"you are my devil. you are my everything."

.

#80

f***!!
thank you so much sebab berjaya downkan mood saya lagi.
blah!

#79

bullshit! go away!
how you can comfort him?
remember aisyah. remember!

#78

new circle of friends. thanks for letting me in.
sayang tak dapat lepak lama2. there'll be more, right?

#77

floating. can i not touch down?

you said i didn't let you in my heart? how much more do you want?
mak approves you more than i do. i guess it settled then.

this is not 'tak puas hati' or marah2. i just don't know how to tell you.
help.

#76

masih rebung. lama lagi nak jadi buluh. bertahan kalau mahu.

but, it's up to you. duh. like i care. kejam. haha.

#75

Simple

i love your way.
semua yang ada pada kamu.
simple, membuatkan nafas aku tidak menentu

floating in the air.

;)

#74

at last.

peace and serenity.

house. before or after marriage?
or is it too soon? hmmm.

#73

Platonically. I love you too.

P/S: Platonic love is a chaste and strong type of love that is non-sexual.

#72

you gave your whole. can i do the same?

yeah.

#71

saya dah bagi dah password hati saya. get it?

good. keep it.

;)

#70

bullshit la! memang tak pernah puas dengan satu bukan?

I pity you.

wake up.

come on dude.

.

#69

i can still sniff abah's smell.
it's been a year plus since he left us. this year raya is the second time he's not with us.

sad. ;(

#68

am i good enough? can i live up to your expectation?
what's the answer?

i don't even know.

#67

kau memang nak yang depan mata saja.

please-lah.
stop faking it.

tak payah kot pura2.
aku memang suka tengok kau derita.
suffering.

bukan kau gagah-kah?
heh.

#66

doesn't take long to understand.

bila kau tahu kau takkan dapat dia, at least u must date her once. kau rasa awkward bila sembang berdua dengan orang lain. tapi, dengan dia ok saja. laju macam bullet train. kalau tak cuba, takkan tahu output bukan? you are a good friend, ise. who's lah the lucky one yang hidup sama kau nanti. stay cool dude.

pernah rasa macam trophy? dah dapat tapi simpan atas rak.

#65

bad. very bad. haih. sorry word was never enough to say you are sorry. no. feeling guilty can never be redeem by saying sorry. thousand words of sorry are never enough. silent treatment. not knowing what to say. not knowing how to ask. not knowing what to tell. just don't know everything. it sucks. you knew you had done something wrong, something that doesn't pleased the other. yet, you don't know how to mend i. yet, you don't know how to make it right.

still, the other said "it's okay. why do you need to say sorry?"
no. it can't be just like that. it can't be okay.

it will be. it's just you. stop.

#64

figure of speech.

if you don't like it, just say it.

what's with the "please go ahead"?

#63

The silent one always has the bigger secret.

- yang mimi morticia

could be?

#62

owh, come on man. how come 14 extend to 21st?
haih. lari saja la.

#61

i do lie.
i do cheat.

but, i don't fall in love.

#60

yeah! esok weekend!

ok. now, 14th please come faster.
could someone teach me how to mind dance?

next week, please be good to me like this week.
dua muka, sila jangan dekat saya.

#59

an email.

the moment i stepped into the door, , , ,her eyes r melting me down into a stream with my mind going out of place.

no. this line didn't melt me. there are more than meet the eyes.

why the first sight does matter?

#58

where do i go?
hmm.
when?
2 more weeks.
really?
yeah.

#57

diam-diam sudah. bising lebih pun pedih jugak kalau takde response.

please, cepatlah weekend.

#56

be bold, des!!

buat muka tebal.

;)

#55

are u feeling okay?

never been better.

weekend, please come faster.

#54

gelisah.

kalau dah sayang, memang rasa begitu.
itu normal.

sounds funny. you used to be in that situation back then. tapi, tak pernah dapat comforting advice macam ni.
how unfortunate. so, jangan jadi baik sangat. kadang2 bitch itu perlu.

gelisah.

kalau dah sayang, memang rasa begitu.
itu normal. (or not?)

#53

saya rindu senyum dan mata sepet awak.

there, i said it. dah2 lah dengan program pemutihan awak tu.

;(

#52

senang berubah. jadi lain dari yang sebelum ni. tak tahu apa sebab. sampaikan ada pihak yang tolong jawabkan. sedangkan selama ini tegas. harta sendiri pegang sendiri lah kan? kalau dah mahu beri semua pada dia, jadi buat apa lagi nak kenang? bukan kenang? oh, sharing is caring. but, i know you. katalah kau yang kirim sekalipun, nombor itu pun nombor kau, I still know you. sila jangan confusekan diri sendiri. if you all are okay, then stop saying about chance anymore. please.
i'm trying to be friends. bukan nak main tarik tali. tali dulu aku dah lepas. my hands are currently full pulling new ropes. tak larat nak main lagi dah. seriously, i'm tired.

please take note dearself.

#48

sesak.

fullstop.

go away.

#47

you are the finest creature that god ever created.

butterflies, please go away quickly.
don't need you.