#354

hujan. sejuk. lapar.


*haih. bila nak kurus macam tu.


satu minggu akan datang yang sunyi.   :(

#353

a very wide path just appeared before me.
a very wide one. 
though, i can see a very sharp end from afar.


but, the problem is, there are so many new things i should pick up at the entrance.
and with this little grey cell of mine, am i able to stuff it all in, coz i will surely need it along the journey.


how?
just, help me!

#352

1 round taman. durian 1 biji. finished watching perfume (at last).


simple dinner. orchid. driving around. rains. 


a packet of laksa teluk kecai. mi siput.  


bliss. you?

#351

enjoy doing my work. hopefully it last.
 ;)

#350

macam mana nak start buat summary/literature review nih?
macam mana????
isk..

#349

if you wake up in the morning tomorrow, 
and you find out it is actually still in year 2010 (a year back) , 
what would you do?

#348

#2011 dreams crushed. built up a new dream. eh, no. a reality.

#347

i do love making simple things complicated. that's why i need you.
yes. you! help me out straighten things i bent in my mind.
is it too much, oh savior?

#346

smile for a better day. a better future.
put up with my rants. thank you.

i can't promise everything you dream of.
but, i'll be there.
insyaAllah.

#345

drizzle. raining. cold. shivering.


i can't imagine it if you weren't there.


thank you.

#344

satu saat sesak.
satu saat lapang.
itu ukuran?
bukan.
itu tentu duduk sayang kamu?
bukan.
jadi?

entah. aku bingung.

#343

sini tukar jadi semua ada. bukan lagi heartlove semata. bukan lagi love spills saja.
hatred, nonsense, jatuh, sakit, jealousy, pathetic, cynical, sarcasm semua sekali ada.


apa-apalah. my own space. takde sape paksa.

#342

used to be very pretty. 
yeah. used to.
now gone.


tak payah minta. akhir nanti nampak juga.
kalau busuk hati tu, memang busuk juga.
fullstop.

#341

tepu......

help! wanna have a very good sleep now. cuddling with bantal.
hmmmmm

#340

a hectic morning. buying flight ticket for bibik. late for work. tak sempat breakfast. jammed sikit. isk.

kyoto protocol. patut macam penah dengar. rupanya nama satu band indie. bukan yg environment tu. haha.
and tak sabar nak dating dengan sherlock. please.

#339

KYOTO PROTOCOL.


apela benda alah ni? tak pernah ambil tahu pun sebelum ni. n now tetiba kena study dari A-Z. isk. help. satu hapa pun tak masuk lagi. kalau kyoto japan nak jugak la. agak2 ada chance tak gi kyoto? hahahaha. u wish!

#338

"muka sama dah. sayang jodoh takde"


really? itu bukan alat ukur kot. samalah macam mana sekalipun. kalau takde, takde jugak der.




used to get the stares from others. dulu2 lah. sekarang pun still ada jugak. i'm hot kan? hahahahaha. nak muntah jap. 

#337

going or not? company tukar angin?
jauh dan jalan sesak.
serabut.


help.

#336

In modern usage, the term "dictator" is generally used to describe a leader who holds and/or abuses an extraordinary amount of personal power, especially the power to make laws without effective restraint by a legislative assembly. Dictatorships are often characterized by some of the following traits: suspension of elections and of civil liberties; proclamation of a state of emergency; rule by decree; repression of political opponents without abiding by rule of law procedures; these include single-party state, and cult of personality.                                                                    from wiki                                                                                                                   

a "no" with reason, please. and  i will give you mine.

#335

missing sabah!

#334

sherlock holmes! yeah!


kenapa xde cinema dkt bangi? 
alamanda is boring.

#333

get busy! banyak lagi kena baca.


no more wandering around.

#332

new on list.  ;)

#331

let it be soon. *wish

#330

ingat petang ni dapat jumpa. but, priority given to work.


ok. smile.  
;)


oh, dah borong film untuk holiday. harap2 jadi.

#329

sinar2 nak dapat cuti tu macam cerah.  ;)


holiday!

#328

#327

smile for no reason. it is okay, i guess.
sudut sana masih ada baki lagi. cuba tolak jauh-jauh.


sayang-sayang jangan tolak. bila jatuh nanti sakit.
hati jangan buat main.
ikhlas kata ikhlas. 
tidak kata tidak.


tell the truth even if it leads you to your death. 

#326

still cold.


but only the body. 
heart is warmer.

#325

it's freaking cold. 


i want sushi. and you.

#324

pagi ini rasa sedih. 


i never had the chance, right?
it's ok kot. nevermind.


semalam no mood at all due to unknown reason. 
and then tiba2 dapat present.
coincidence. no?

#323

i want to start a book right now!

trembling. shaking. cold.

#322

you are. just wake up from your dreams......

#321

#320

macam kertas buruk.

#319

i just want to go somewhere else. away from everybody.
live in a place where nobody know me.
need not worry for tomorrow or anything else.


i wish i can.

#318

kosong. penuh. kosong. penuh.
kosong semula. penuh semula.


ulang-ulang benda yang sama.
tak bosan. 
 good. i think so.

#317

am still trying.
sorry.

don't wait until u've been asked to. instead, share everything.
remember aisyah.

#316

weekend!


oh, ada satu hari lagi.
ish.

#315

tomorrow, please come faster!

#314

craving for Bourbon's Choco & Coffee biscuit.. fave since primary school. last seen on Giant shelf was 3 or 4 years ago.


i want!!

#313

feels like crying.

let loose and it doesn't want to be that way. 

what way?

i don't even know what i'm saying.

u can't undo what's done. nope.

let's just hope the burning mad will fade away.

i'm sorry.

#312

sesungguhnya, saya akan balik cepat dalam masa seminggu ini. 
(kira masih nampak matahari bila sampai rumah)

#311

i miss abah. so much.....


*tears


past.

#310

Dear paman,


sorry for being a stubborn lil girl.
sorry for being a lil girl full of doubt.
sorry for being mengada at not the right time.

I'll try not to cari pasal again.
(dah frame cantik2 simpan atas almari)
harap2 atas almari sana ada orang lain tolong jaga.


on the another note.


yang lepas memang dah tak boleh ubah.
tapi, yang ada sekarang dan masa depan masih ada harapan.
why don't you try to keep it alive instead of pulling me into your situation.

tumpul.

tarah-lah.

takik-lah.

libas-lah.

pancung-lah.

kalau tumpul, 

begitu juga.

xde hasil der.

i'll try not to lose respect to you. apa yg kau buat itu mulia. tapi, sila jangan takut jadi diri sendiri. 

aku sedar aku silap. tapi, positif. mungkin itu yang tertulis. kalau bukan, tuhan pasti tunjuk. langkah kita akan jadi mudah.

i'm sorry.

#309

Kalau boleh

kau ku 

racik racik

dan

ku gulung gulung 

menjadi kretek.

Simpan dalam poket,

dan 

engkau akan

ku hirup

kapanpun ingin.

hanahanafleur

yes paman. i know u don't smoke kretek. 
tapi, sesuai bukan? 

#308

yes.
i am the queen of freaking out.
i am the queen of spill it all.
i am the queen of benda-dah-elok-nak-pi-usik-buat-apa.
i am the queen of takde-pasal-nak-cari-pasal.
i am the queen of egocentric.
yes. i am all the above.


and yes. thank you.
for ruining my mood. 
:)


*smile fading away. 


:(

#307

berlarilah.
selagi kamu mampu.


silent and running away.

#306

i said i don't want any bed. but, if you find this real, i might reconsider.

;)

#305

found on Tumblr.

#304

what the fuss about breaking dawn? twilight? apa tu?
never watch any of the movies. tak terfikir pun. 


twilight vs. the oxford murders.
i choose the latter one.
haha.




tapi masing2 punya minat kan. terpulang.

#303

baru sedar. nampak. siapa yang mahu.
didn't know before this.
and saw no effort.


but, thanks anyway.

#302

sesak. penuh.
maaf, takde ruang lagi berbaki.

#301

twice? no. it doesn't.

#300

ayat penyata yang tidak sedap didengar:


ayat 1 : "eh, awal echa balik hari ni?"


ayat 2 : "selalunya malaaaam baru cik echa balik kan?"


ayat 3 :  bibik : hari ni nak masak apa, dik echa?
             me : apa2 lah bibik.
             bibik : balik lambat la tu. tak makan kat rumah la kan.
             me : T_T


ayat 4 : "cik echa tak keluar hari ni?"


seriously, haih.
T_T

#299

from web

Stumble upon this on 'a beautiful mess' blog. Loves! 

And then remembered I have done one too. But much bigger with less cost. 

But, not as pretty and artsy la. Compared. I think mine still okay.

mine.

Some parts have to be blurred. Hehe.

Bila la boleh decorate wall macam ni lagi? hmmm...

#298

hey, how's your life?
doing good?

#297

ask yourself.

#296

used to hate everything i don't like. 
but, the hatred doesn't last long.


takde guna benci2 kot.

#295

saya sangat gedik
gedik adalah saya


huh?


pandai2 lah fikir. dah besar. pandai2 lah behave.

#294

craving for sushi n strawberries!


done!

#293

i search for you. and there is none.


frustrated.

#292

doo-it. (haih)
tak elok mengeluh, bukan? 


wahai cik tayar, please bertahan ok? jiran depan awak tu dah buat saya spend untuk tayar baru.
so, please behave. dia dah bawa lari budget dulu. 


smile. for a better day.

#291

I can be a lover, a hater, a fighter, a player, but that just ain't my style. 
I'm nothing but a mystery with a pretty smile.

#290

kenapa senang sangat dizzy sekarang ni?
please. 
jauh2 dari apa penyakit. tak mahu.

#289

kepercayaan tanpa rasional - buta
rasional tanpa kepercayaan - kontang

-matluthfi

#284

i want this! 

tesco, please ada.

#283

hiding in daylight.


let see how far you can manage.

#282

looking at the past. eh, no. i mean looking forward the future.


relationship is one funny thing.
accidentally built (maybe)
yeah. could be construct from any reason. gamble. boredom.
or maybe...instinct.
could be. 


tanya hati. sendiri jawab.
tak perlu paksa.

#281

falling hard.


for you.

#280

sakit bila beri segala.

come on. 

#279

one track mind.


P.A.G

#278

Heart beats fastColors and promisesHow do be braveHow can I love when I'm afraidTo fallBut watching you stand aloneAll of my doubtSuddenly goes away somehow

#277

mahu atau tidak itu sendiri rasa.
don't blame others la.

#276

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands (clap clap)
If you're happy and you know it, then your face will surely show it
If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands. (clap clap)


smile and show it to the world.
be happy. happy deserves everyone.


sebab apa nak peeping lagi bukan? we deserves our own space. 
and yes, we do have our own preference. tak perlu paksa2 la.

#275

;)

#274

A good looking woman works out to keep her body in shape. 
But a pretty woman kneels down in prayer to keep her heart in shape.

#273

yup. mistakes can't be undone.
comparing and looking for an escape are not the answer.


you.
it will never be anyone else. 
it will be only you.

#272

put the past behind.
frame it nicely.
so, you will not be ashamed of it.


;)

#271

smile.


for a better day.
for a positive future.


;)

#270

ugh. i need new space.
help!

#269

saya adalah seorang jahat.


tetapi, direject kejahatannya kerana dikatakan seorang yang baik.


this is wrong.


somewhere. maybe. hmmm.

#268

takde mood.


langsung.

#267

Shame.

You have a lot of nerve to still be here, reading this.
Shame on you.

And you're the sad one, now.
Not me.
Okay, I am still the sad one, just you're the sadder one.

:)

copy dari kickass. yeah! very the kickass.

#266

ada saja kan yang buat sakit. ada juga yang buat suka. 
tapi, bila kau rasa mahu sampai bila-bila,  sila teruskan.
jangan terdetik. jangan selisih. 


hati bukan main-main.

#265

"you crossed my life. you stay. for quite some time. you saw someone. you gave yourself a chance. you being true. but, not wholly. you let go half. trying to reach it. when it get to your sense of belonging, you confused."


i just don't have the ending. anyway, this is crap. must-go-crap.  

#264

mixed feeling.


but, i know we want it.


and thank you for overwrite the memory. 

#263

can't wait for tonight.


boleh tak kalau jangan teruja sangat? memalukan.

#262

A: "What does she look in a man?"


P: "The man with balls."


a very funny conversation. she didn't sedar pun that thing. you know who i am. doesn't need to be 'meleweh' punya orang. go up front and tell. tak payah kias2. she is a person with thousand reasons.  

#261

i want you!

badly.

haih.

#260

ingat comel la tu?
tak langsung. haha.


apa2 lah. makan karipap lagi sedap.

#259

scared. confused. blurred. uncertain. 


can i?

#258

Die Schlacht ist geschlagen

#257

back to normal.  ;)
love you more than i know.

#256

is there still any checklist?
I don't know.


...

#255

checklist to be done.


gonna start next week after some discussion. hopefully, all will go well.


amin. 


oh btw, goodluck N9!

#254

GET OFF MY MIND!!

#253

plan. plan. plan.

sila jangan gelabah.

#252

it's not a statement. it's a tricky question.
bukan syok sendiri. the question itself buat kamu terfikir.


i am just asking. is it enough what i've been giving you all this while?

#251

LCCT, here i come! haha.

today is the day. muahahahahahaha!

#250

nak holiday with mak. but, gotta save up! ugh.

#249

Can i do this? can we work it out?


i don't know.

#248

what's up with this early marriage? be patient.
not going to run away. with him or anyone else.
chill.

#247

paranoid.


"kenapa kita tak jumpa dari awal dulu?"
"fate. takdir. nature flow. kalau awal lagi kita dah jumpa, all of this won't happen."


hakikat, kita pernah jumpa dulu. awal lagi dari yang kamu sangka first time our eyes met. tapi, tika itu masih ada hidup sendiri. sedar dan kabur dengan apa yang ada. truth is, i don't remember those times. all i know is joanna, germany girl yang kamu angkat ke hulu ke hilir. thailand, bali. juga cerita2 buruk pasal kamu. i don't care at first. macam kau tonton drama tv. lihat, dengar, faham, lupa. 


then, apa yang jadi sekarang ni? i don't know. it's good. at least i feel good. no. it's great.
you're being a pencil and eraser at the same time. 
or is it what i pretend to see who you are. i don't know. again.
sikit-sikit kita corak route ini. at least we both dah nampak apa yang ada. 
yes, you didn't offer anything. no promises to be broken. 


at least for now.
coz, i can't offer or promise anything to you either.

#246

susah kan nak keep hold pada apa yang bukan kita punya? dah dulu kau paksa2 juga kan.
so, nak atau separuh nak, kau tetap juga kena pegang.
janji jangan tinggal janji. bila dah tawar hati, memang susah der.
tak guna lah menangis air mata darah sekalipun. 
hati tetap tak senang, bukan?


terasa? ok. memang patut pun aisyah.

#245

chill. marah tak bertempat. tak cool langsung. haih.

#244

ok. nak pi perah orang baru dapat gaji.. apalah sangat prawn grill kan? haha.

#243

hari ini baru hari selasa. hari khamis lama lagi nak sampai. ugh!
nak enjoy sorang2. movie or shopping? or, ada sapa nak teman?

#242

gegedik. fine! do whatever you want. aku happy kot. no worries.

#241

kalau orang dah ajak tu, pergi la. 
nanti, lain kali dah tak kena ajak baru nak ikut memang tak dapat lah.
paman, nak ikut pergi sarawak...........

#240

sori la. aku takde otak bisnes. sikit2 boleh. banyak2 aku pass kat ko blk. ok?


tapi, macam best kalau buat benda ni selalu. cool.

#239

do you take it seriously? didn't meant to make you mad.
aku bukan siapa-siapa.

#238

saw pelangi last friday. 1st ever pelangi after balik dari sabah. sana boleh kata setiap petang kot ada pelangi kalau hujan. betul ke orang cakap nampak pelangi tu petanda baik. maybe la kot. weekend sangat bliss. driving penat2 pun takpe coz dapat surprise after tu.  ;)

hope dapat news baik dari IKP this week. amin.

#237

bliss!

#236

oooooooo balik kampung

oooooooo balik kampung

oooooooo balik kampung

hati girang......

#235

part time? good enough.
full time? more than great.


amin.

#234

WHY lah kau spill kan secret tu depan2 dia? ugh. s*** la..

#233

do you still care?


i know you are. hehe.

#232

bless me with happiness and i won't ask for anything more.


tapi, tipulah kalau seronok dengan life with no downs. tak adventure langsung.

#231

can we survive?

.

#230

5 minit sweet escape can last for 2 weeks.
apalah sangat 10 hari, kan?

#229

tension : relieved.
decision : tekad.
money : gotta go somewhere to dig up.

#228

tak payah paksa. atau perli2. lagilah dia lari jauh2.
lek2 sudah. 

apalah sangat 7 11 dulang tu nak compare dengan 1 dulang tapi 5-6 orang yang kena angkat.
haha. confirm 7 legacy, orang still ingat lagi.

#227

Repeat after me : Infinite loop.

#226

 I like to look up wild at an infinite sky.

#225

Don't be scared. I'm not here for your heart.

#224

of all the things I've lost, I miss my mind the most

#223

I just love cherry tree! How that ordinary thing can make me smile.

#222

When a person is still with or doing something, but s/he said out loud s/he miss another thing that clearly is not right.
As a normal person, would you forgive that?

#221

nak pergi konser SO7!! why lah dia tak buat showcase special untuk diorg saje? xnak tgk yg lain2.
tix rm20. tapi, confirm xde org nak ikut n sendiri x sanggup nak harung lautan indo. haih.

#220

sabtu lepas bawak bebudak pi big bad wolf. again. beli cookbook untuk na n 'hitler' biography untuk diri sendiri. rabu sebelum tu dah beli books on 'serial killer'. tak tau la bila boleh habis baca. ada 6 buku tak baca lagi. hahaha. petang2 lepas bangun tido pi lepak pesta konvo UPM. main flying fox free n menyibuk kat kambing golek stall. kawan paman thought that i'm still a student. hehe. rasa muda jap. balik malam kena pandang lain macam. sori2. mintak ampun. lupa bagitau balik lambat. pagi ahad tengah surfing dapat call. takde helper tolong golek kambing. so, macam flash siap2 pi UPM lagi. sampai sana tolong apa yang patut. balik memang bau asap la. lepas tu escape dengan paman kejap sebab his bro n sis dah ganti. had fun la tengok student2 n orang yang lalu lalang. mostly, balik akan bawa plastic bag isi pokok. even, marlia pun beli pokok sirih. tak tau la kalau ollie makan sirih pinang. ok dah. membebel untuk sapa pun tak tau. just fun to share. dah nama pun merepek meraban kan?

#219

gaji sikit. tapi, job scope minat.
gaji banyak. tapi, passion takde.
ugh.


tipikal dilema. benci.


rasa nak balik kampung. jual kuih tepi jalan.

#218

2 weeks challenge of non-meet-up!!
are you ready for a game?
yeah!


2 minggu? adapahal. small the pieces. kau kan kayu, aisyah. cold blooded heart.

#217

Sunday Serenade.

"Wahai orang yang lembut hatinya,

Sudah lama aku selalu mengecam pahit
Kelam oleh penderitaan
Aku tak ada siapapun kecuali Allah dihatiku
Tapi kau datang dengan cahaya
Aku ingin menjadi yang halal bagimu
Yang kan kau kecup keningnya
Kau hapus airmatanya.

Dari orang yang selalu merindukan cahayamu,"

-AAC

#copy dari blog orang lain

#216

have you ever thought that, you yang tak cukup sempurna?
selalu kau fikir, dia yang tak cukup bagus untuk kamu.
dia yang tak cukup untuk penuhi apa yang kamu mahu.
padahal, kamu yang tak pernah fikir apa yang dia mahu. 
apa yang benar dia hasrat adanya kamu.


yeah, love blinds.
tapi, sampai satu saat, kau akan sedar yang pedih luka lagi membutakan.
it shuts off everything.
memaksa ke satu sudut yang mungkin akhirnya kau buntu.
atau mungkin juga ada pintu kecil yang bisa sambung.
sambungkan hayat kamu.

#215

 clouds on the way

 tekala's 'foodcourt'

 'tourist guide'

 sunlight & trees. 

 see that small waterfall?

 trees again

 tempat paling atas yg tourist guide penah sampai la.

 mangoes n plums chiller.

hiking sampai atas. kot lah. sayang kasut nak redah air. sila kumpul duit untuk teva. ;)

tak mandi coz sebab2 tertentu. next time bebeh. dapat main air pun ok la. oh, ada satu scene tak sengaja nampak. a naked high schooler boy dicover oleh kawan dia supaya kitorang tak nampak dia. haha. sorry dude. saw you. pastu balik pi tengok hulu langat dam. baru tau on the way situ boleh nampak KLCC. ada couple buat pre wed photo kat sana. gigih la kot pakai dress drag naik atas batu. tinggi kot. gambar pun tak banyak. battery camera boleh pulak drop dead kat waterfall. phone pun tinggal dalam kereta. tak dapat la capture rumah landak. there's always next time, kan? penang tak dapat gi. tekala pun ok la kot.